Am I out of control?

[Edgar (In the Moment)]

Blackouts, crystal meth, group sex with strange guys...I'm getting worried that I'm not in control of this anymore. Do you know anybody who's been through something like this? What should I do?

[SADIO]

I know so many guys...who use drugs, and so many guys who dont want to use drugs anymore. I know so many guys who are also in denial. Knowing what you do is one thing ....not knowing what you do is another. When you know what you do hurts you and others, then stop. The hurt should make you stop. The pain should make you run the other way. There is no cure for drug abuse, but there is and end. And that end is when you say...."I have had enough." Only you know when that time is. And hopefully it is not when someone is dead or dying. Hopefully the end is right at that precise moment when you have not lost yourself or someonelse. Responsibility is a man thing. Anybody can do drugs, but are you man enough to stop? Are you strong enough to say..."I am in control of .....me."

[SexySagi]

Edgar, I feel that you use the drugs as a means of escape. You dealing with your HIV status, your jealousy of your ex, and your not being able to move on without him hence your living with him. The drugs temporarily take you away from the reality of your situation and that's not good. When you get right down to it, Edgar, the only person you're hurting is you. You've got to get real with yourself and the first step is getting off the drugs, realizing that what you had with your ex is in the past and mainly, you need to move into your own place and start living your life on your own!!

[Mark]

You may want to confide in your roommate. That would be the best place to start. But, when you do, make sure you are sober and have an open mind and EARS!

[jacamo]

You beautiful young man ,you should look in the mirror and repeat I Love Myself. Then get a great night sleep and repeat this process 2 times a day .
Stop taking drugs!

[Mark]

It is good to see Edgar opening up to someone. That is a major first step in him getting recovery. I will be watching. I love you guys for putting on this type of forum for us to watch and share with others. Some people really don't understand how important it is for us to continue to be open and talk about this subject.

[Graciej]

I say you are on a downward spiral that may very well lead to your death, drinking til blackout, drugs, and group sex. If that is not a recipe to send you to the grave I don't know what is. If you were my client I would use roll play techniques to help you to see that your behavior is out of control and very dangerous. Why don't you just be honest with your self and your crush about how you feel instead of trying to drown out your feeling with sex, drugs, and alcohol.

[Jemal David]

Nope i sure don't. I say you are out of control. Drugs are bad and always will be bad and they cannot help you. bad bad bad.

[Cesar Castillo]

I myself a few years ago was in 12th grade and being a craigslist Ho at night was very demoralizing. Crystal meth finally brought me to my knees and I finally got sober. The first step for me to get sober was to SURRENDER. To accept im no different. Drugs/Alcohol doesent discriminate. People dont wake up cracked out with a broken grill...ceratin actions got them there...it takes work to stay HIGH and and alot more work to stay SOBER...